33 Days, 33 Posts: Day 17 - The Pivot
This is it. The exact half-way point; there are as many days to go as there are behind me. Aside from the little nocturnal "thing" night before last, I'm still with it.
And it's driving me nuts.
Today is Valentine's. Say what you will about the crass commercialism. Part of me is still a hopeless romantic, and being alone on this day brings me down. To be fair, the last time I had an SO on Valentine's was 2001. That was E, whom I think I might have mentioned before. She was amazing in a lot of ways. One of the most passionate lovers I've ever known, and very adventurous. She worked for Good Vibrations during most of the time we were together. Oh, the times she'd look at me and say, "There's something new I got at work today that I want to try out." I miss that...
Today was really hard, temptation-wise. Not that I was extra-horny... I'm still on the tail end of being sick (fever broke overnight, thankfully). Just the overwhelming desire to feel some human touch. I prowled Craigslist, but seeing a sex worker wasn't an option (too broke, and it would be inconsiderate to risk making someone sick, if I'm still contagious at all) and the handful of casual-encounters ads I answered yielded nothing (except for the one that was actually spam, responding to which triggered an auto-response trying to get me to visit a dating website). If any of them had panned out, I'd probably have blown the whole goal.
Guess it's just as well for me that they didn't.
-D
And it's driving me nuts.
Today is Valentine's. Say what you will about the crass commercialism. Part of me is still a hopeless romantic, and being alone on this day brings me down. To be fair, the last time I had an SO on Valentine's was 2001. That was E, whom I think I might have mentioned before. She was amazing in a lot of ways. One of the most passionate lovers I've ever known, and very adventurous. She worked for Good Vibrations during most of the time we were together. Oh, the times she'd look at me and say, "There's something new I got at work today that I want to try out." I miss that...
Today was really hard, temptation-wise. Not that I was extra-horny... I'm still on the tail end of being sick (fever broke overnight, thankfully). Just the overwhelming desire to feel some human touch. I prowled Craigslist, but seeing a sex worker wasn't an option (too broke, and it would be inconsiderate to risk making someone sick, if I'm still contagious at all) and the handful of casual-encounters ads I answered yielded nothing (except for the one that was actually spam, responding to which triggered an auto-response trying to get me to visit a dating website). If any of them had panned out, I'd probably have blown the whole goal.
Guess it's just as well for me that they didn't.
-D
Labels: 33 days, depression, temptation
posted by Dausa at
11:43 PM
1 Comments:
I just wanted to say, I really like your blog; it's very interesting to get an insight into a well-written, intelligent male's life (in terms of a sex!blog, if you will)
There's a plethora of blogs concerning female sexuality and life online (as virtually all? the links on your Blog show), but very few about males.
Keep up the good work.
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