Diary of An Unrepentant Sex Addict

Thursday, February 08, 2007

33 Days, 33 Posts: Day 11 - Jealousy

Day 11 of captivity. Captivity of my tackle, that is.

I have to confess to being prone to jealousy. I'm achingly jealous of all of you who are having regular, wonderful, dirty, kinky, loving, rough, gentle, wet, messy, drawn-out, quickie, furtive, languid, solo, duo, group, decadent sex.

Let's be clear, though, and not confuse my jealousy with resentment. By no means do I resent any of you. I don't resent any of the thousands (possibly tens of thousands) of people in my metro area having sex right this minute. I'm just jealous, insanely, sadly jealous of those of you who have partners in your life. Partners who fit you emotionally as well as physically. Some of you have more than one. More that one! There are some of us starving over here! I read your posts, and I ache to have a fraction of what you have. I live vicariously through your writings, and this is why I persist in reading my blogroll throughout this, even as I swear off of porn and erotica. Still, I wonder what it must be like to be in an urban area like Jefferson and the others in NYC, or have a committed relationship as passionate as the ones enjoyed by SalaciousDesires, BBG, or BBG's partner in MILFBlog. I'd love to be able to travel to the parts of the country where I might be able to meet AAG or la fille mariée.

It seems almost silly, to be pledging off of sex when I don't have a partner anyway. That's why avoiding wanking is an important part of the vow; otherwise it really wouldn't be different than any other 33 days of my life (at least lately).

Just don't stop, OK?


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